Happy 1 year August 27th

Today is a day I will remember forever...
Today, is a day that will be cheerished for years to come...
Today, I celebrate my union to my amazingly handsome, brown haired, blue eyed Husband.
Today, we celebrate 1 year being married, and if your a Vermonter (which I am not) then we also remember Hurricane Irene who hit the next morning (eek).

A year ago we were surrounded by the people we love and cheerish the most, and to this day we still do and could not have asked for a better set of friends and family. Thank you to all who have shared in our amazing experience as husband and wife so far!

Here is what we did for our 1 year anniversary...

Friday, August 24th, we went to dinner at this amazing little place called the Rabbit Hill Inn, seewebsite here --> http://www.rabbithillinn.com/ its absolutely beautiful, the owners Leslie and Brian are some of the most interesting and genuinely sincere people I have ever met. If you ever want to get away please call them and come to little ol' Waterford VT. We had an amazing dinner of course its farm fresh and local; it consisted of homemade bread oatmeal molases, appetizers of Corn pudding for myself, and bacon cabbage soup for Justin. We then were treated to smoked ham with homemade pickles, then I had the chicken meatballs with homemade sauce and udon noodles plus a whipped ricotta topping; Justin had coho salmon poached in olive oil on a bed of kimchi and black baluga lentils. For dessert we enjoyed an almond parmesean pound cake with elderberries, then we ordered 2 desserts one was a lemon pousset which if you like Rabbit Hill on facebook you can get the reciepe, or maybe some day i'll share it :) and the other was a cinnamon chocolate shortbread with strawberries and fresh whipped cream....

 



 

 

 

 

Last night we made Fresh Corn Salsa and canned (have many stories abouto ur canning experience) then we opened our freezer to try our amazingly delicious Cupcakes from our wedding,

We had Stawberry Champagne Cupcakes (shown above) , White Chocolate Blueberry (shown Center), and a Triple Chocolate Blackberry (Shown below) even a year later they were still amazing, although I didnt eat more than a bite!

 

 

 

 

 

 



This is us last night at 1030pm after waiting all night for them to unthaw... I still think my favorite is the Stawberry Champagne even though its sweet.... Justin is a huge triple chocolate Blackberry fan...

Well Justin, I love you to the Moon and back! I can't wait to see what this next year has in store for us :)

Love,

The Brooke-n-ator (yes, his nickname for me)



oh the joys of surgery day

So as anyone knows who reads my blog knows I had surgery a week ago on August 14th... I had my husband take a few photos before and of course he took one while I was sleeping as you will see below....

This is once they put in the IV, which the nurse that did it rocked! She didn't make it hurt at all, but boy was all that fluid cold, brrrr!

This is by far the worse picture ever but I will still share it I have no shame :) This is right before the wheeled me off, but to tell you the truth I don't really remember since they gave me some strong cocktail of drugs to knock me out :) She told me it would be like a margertia but in reality it really didn't taste like anything I was rather disappointed! Since I do like my alcohol... (I hope this doesn't make me a bad person or eventually a mom)

This is the one that my hunnie took when I was wheeled back sleeping before I could feel anything.... If I could feel it I definitely would not have been on my side as my shoulders would not have allowed that..

So that is my crazy picture journey of My1st Surgery... By the way the Hospital was amazing, and my husband thought it was just fabulous that they give you the buzzy thingies you get at restaurants and you can go anywhere in this huge hospital and look at any screen to get updates :) Dartmouth Hitchcock in Lebanon NH was just amazing :) 

Beginning, Middle and a new start

Over the past year or two my husband and I have been dealing with infertility, nothing that I haven't said yet in this blog. However the more I look in the past the more it made me think about how broken I felt. I felt broken and defeated going through this process of finding out what was wrong with me or with even my husband; he felt it was me and I did the childish thing and said will it could be you! rather then be supportive of each other. We have grown both individual and as a couple over the past year, we learned so much about each other, like for instance he learned about my fears of never being pregnant, my crazy idea of being pregnant and done by the time I am 30 years old and the fact that I don't want to be in my 60s and just having my kids get out of the house. I learned he is super laid back about issues at hand, he also wants to have kids and be done by 30 but he also understand it may not happen with the hand we have been dealt (this is where we differ). Justin is one of the most kind, caring and supportive people I know, even when I am at my most craziest, he just goes with it and even picks me up when I fall. Who could really ask for a better man to spend the rest of their live with; I know many women say the same thing about their man too.

Since all of this IF stuff started I found myself engulfed in the world of blogging or at least reading blogs about others who have been through IF and have seen the good the bad and the ugly. I found many blogs, but not all dealing with IF I started to follow a few who were jut pregnant and telling their story through their pregnancy, a few had IF problems and also found themselves to be pregnant finally, and a few where just super cute and drew me in. each one has given me hope that Justin and I will find ourselves one day holding a darling baby girl or boy (I am hoping girl). Each blog post I read I can relate to even if I don't have kids, they each teach me something and/or give me joy.

Here's a quote I found that I think fits at this time in my life: "you've got what it takes, but it will take everything you've got" That is my plan, to give everything I have from now til the day I get to hold a baby, my baby, well our baby. This quote is what is going to get me through now that we have jumped a big hurdle and finally got some good news.

Yesterday, I spent the day at Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center. Justin and I found out a little while ago i was going to need surgery to repair one if not both Fallopian tubes and remove a cyst from my right ovary. We yesterday August 14th was the day! I felt I was a trooper, even with this being my first surgery ever; I was more scared then when and elephant sees a mouse. I Had Justin take some photos of before I got all hopped up on meds and then he took one when I was in recovery, I will share those later :) all in all it was a successful surgery according to Dr. Porter, she did have to take out my right tube in the end because it was far to damaged for her to save, she also removed the cyst in my right ovary, and was able to clean out and fix my left tube. She said in her opinion she thinks this is going to give us a great chance of getting pregnant on our own with no IVF. She did warn us though or well warned Justin that we now have a higher rate of having a tubal pregnancy so we will have to be monitored closely so we can try to prevent that. I am just happy I didn't loose it all! So recovery is about 6 weeks of no lifting over a gallon of milk, and just making sure I don't get any heaving bleeding or a spike in fever. I go back on the 17th of September where I should get approval to start trying to have a baby (Yippee, Hooray, Yahoo!!!) we are super excited to have this chapter starting and hoping it will only bring us amazing things over the next year. However if it doesn't we know we can handle anything that may come our way; Together.

Look for Picture and stuff later, I am to tired to do anymore.....

3 days and counting

Its three days before I have surgery... Yes I said it Three Days.... I am honestly growing more and more stressed out, I am sure its normal but I think I have said it before and if I havent then great I am super duper nervous for this surgery! It will be my first time being knocked out and I am not looking forward to being loopy and all screwed up on meds, especially since I rarely take medications at all not even Ibprofen anymore. Needless to say Surgery is on Tuesday and from Sunday on I get to eat nothing but clear liquids and jello, this way I dont have to take that yucky colonoscopy drink. I hope I can adhere to there rules!

Well this weekend is going to be one for the books, Justin and I are heading to MA to visit my grandfather, then off to Portsmouth to see the bro, and then to Ipswich to see Justins Grandfather for his 80th bday! then you add driving to Dartmouth monday and tuesday.. it will be a long few days, but atleast i'll be busy :)