This morning I have found it hard to look at facebook, the news, twitter or even pinterest. The reason being that babies are coming out of the wood works, so to speak. Today, I logged on to facebook and I see three people that had their little darling babies and three more that are announcing their bundles of joy being due in the fall. I know its like who cares but I do! It is hard enough to watch everyone get pregnant and have their own little cuties but knowing that Justin and I are struggling to have one of our own is wearing me down.
I am truly happy for all of my friends and acquaintances and random people I meet that have the proverbial "bun in the oven" but man oh man do I wish I could have that too. I know sometime it will happen with the right cocktail of drugs and stress free time, but the longer the wait the more stressed and down I feel about myself. I know many people go through this and I am not alone but I think when it happens it doesn't matter how many people go through infertility it still makes you feel awful and like there is something wrong with you. I have read many blogs about peoples struggles and how far they are willing to go to have that beautiful baby but for myself and Justin we only have two options and that is Glucophage and/or Clomid since they are the cheapest and possibly covered by our insurance. We are not a lucky couple who has a bajillion dollars to sink into IVF or I think its IUF either way those are both out of our ballpark. adoption has been in the back of our minds but that is a decision that will come well after we have tried with Glucophage and Clomid.
Well that was my rant and way of relieving stress! I still wish everyone that is pregnant the best during the length of this journey and those that have had their babies enjoy the time it seems to go by fast.
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